Not now...

Are you there? or am I just dreaming? if yes, please don't wake me up from my dream.. Just can't face the world. A world full of pretence and acting, a world full of uncertainties and lies, a world that don't really understands me... Given a moment like this, I just wanna cry out... Get me out of here.. this feeling that i'm feeling, isn't suitable for a moment like this... Not at a moment like this...

strength

When everything seems to be falling apart, I found new strength in Christ who strengthens me... Just wanna thank God that He has been guiding me all these while, providing me with the best knowledge and wisdom to do my assignments and even my tests... Without You, where would I be, Lord... I felt that life is not about comparing ourselves with others but to prove ourselves to God that we can do it because of His providence... Life is only a temporary shelter, full of inconsistency and trials... and I thank God that He's always with me, although I'm yet a sinner... Just felt that life without God is meaningless.... Once again, thank you, Lord, thank you Jesus.. Love you...

Life...

Today has not much different from tomorrow, just that today is more special than yesterday's. Sometimes we encounter some embarrassing moments in life and didn't know what to do. Sometimes action is sillier than what we thought. I wonder how human's brain works. Funny isn't it? Often in my heart I feel like giving up on certain things but days kept me hanging on. Hanging to something that I'm not sure if it's worth, hanging on something that I might or might not regret, hanging on decisions that I've made, hanging on so many things. Sorrow and pain just keep on pouncing on me! Just don;t know why. Can things be still by their own? Will a broken heart be healed, a lost soul be saved? Will tomorrow be better than today? Will the love be restored, happiness be granted? Questions that will have no answer. So, let's just wait for tomorrow.....

Do I have a choice?

Sometimes you just feel that you are dying inside, but didn't know how to get out. You have no way to run, just in that little corner, you know you are left without a choice. How do you endure the sickness that tortures your mind, the pain that devours your heart? And you have just one question in mind. 'Can I have a choice?' When destiny is prepared for you, you have no choice but to follow suit. The question is, 'Do you dare to take the challenge of rebellion?'.  

Condemmers...

Torturers, oh torturers of dreams! 

How my heart bleeds with lies of dreams ! 

Taking the daggers, filling the night!

Knowing how we shall end in fight!

The Beginning of New Year!

Wow! it's the beginning of another new year, 2009! Cherish the old memories and welcome the new coming happenings. Year can be great but life definitely have to work a lot harder. Coming to think of it, a new year for a student's life may means new syllabus, more work, tougher assignments and greater burdens. Agree? Definitely! I can assure that it's not going to be easy but after all, I believe that we all can deal with it, of course with the help of our Almighty God. Life is a challenge and that's where we have to take it. So, good luck to all my friends and definitely, myself! We shall fight this war of studies together and triumph with excellence! Gambatte! =)

Sunday...

Today this Sunday. Don't know why every Sunday I have certain fear in heart. Maybe because of the fact of going to school on Monday or maybe something else. Just don't get the feelings of studying. HowI wish! But reality is still reality. I still have to move on and keep going on no matter what circumstances... Life can be simple but we don't have much choice for it. Do it or leave it! That's it and your future will be just as that... But even every single day is like a dream, I thank God because He provided me with so many blessings into my life. Family love, a good relationship and caring friends from all over the place. I'll never get tired of thanking God for providing that someone special... How I wish it will never end... Wish that I could create a better world, a better living for all... Right now Michael Jackson's song is running through my head.. Heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race... Yea.. For you and for me.. and what I am will definitely make a difference...