Life...

Today has not much different from tomorrow, just that today is more special than yesterday's. Sometimes we encounter some embarrassing moments in life and didn't know what to do. Sometimes action is sillier than what we thought. I wonder how human's brain works. Funny isn't it? Often in my heart I feel like giving up on certain things but days kept me hanging on. Hanging to something that I'm not sure if it's worth, hanging on something that I might or might not regret, hanging on decisions that I've made, hanging on so many things. Sorrow and pain just keep on pouncing on me! Just don;t know why. Can things be still by their own? Will a broken heart be healed, a lost soul be saved? Will tomorrow be better than today? Will the love be restored, happiness be granted? Questions that will have no answer. So, let's just wait for tomorrow.....

Do I have a choice?

Sometimes you just feel that you are dying inside, but didn't know how to get out. You have no way to run, just in that little corner, you know you are left without a choice. How do you endure the sickness that tortures your mind, the pain that devours your heart? And you have just one question in mind. 'Can I have a choice?' When destiny is prepared for you, you have no choice but to follow suit. The question is, 'Do you dare to take the challenge of rebellion?'.  

Condemmers...

Torturers, oh torturers of dreams! 

How my heart bleeds with lies of dreams ! 

Taking the daggers, filling the night!

Knowing how we shall end in fight!

The Beginning of New Year!

Wow! it's the beginning of another new year, 2009! Cherish the old memories and welcome the new coming happenings. Year can be great but life definitely have to work a lot harder. Coming to think of it, a new year for a student's life may means new syllabus, more work, tougher assignments and greater burdens. Agree? Definitely! I can assure that it's not going to be easy but after all, I believe that we all can deal with it, of course with the help of our Almighty God. Life is a challenge and that's where we have to take it. So, good luck to all my friends and definitely, myself! We shall fight this war of studies together and triumph with excellence! Gambatte! =)

Sunday...

Today this Sunday. Don't know why every Sunday I have certain fear in heart. Maybe because of the fact of going to school on Monday or maybe something else. Just don't get the feelings of studying. HowI wish! But reality is still reality. I still have to move on and keep going on no matter what circumstances... Life can be simple but we don't have much choice for it. Do it or leave it! That's it and your future will be just as that... But even every single day is like a dream, I thank God because He provided me with so many blessings into my life. Family love, a good relationship and caring friends from all over the place. I'll never get tired of thanking God for providing that someone special... How I wish it will never end... Wish that I could create a better world, a better living for all... Right now Michael Jackson's song is running through my head.. Heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race... Yea.. For you and for me.. and what I am will definitely make a difference...

Tired of Everything.....

Sometimes i do regret for making certain situations in life. Getting attached to something that I call 'freedom-less'. If I am given a chance to turn back the time bu using time- machine, I think I wouldn't make this desicion. I don't think I'm ready for this kind of commitment, not ready to accept changes... But I guess life is like this, it's like a game, a roller coaster that goes up and down, up and down... I wonder when it would end. Sometimes I'm so tired of ll the things. I'm not physically tired but am mentally exhausted. not from all the studies at school but from of all teh problems, conflicts and everything. Im sick of it. Sometimes I just wish to have a nice good happy day but it just turns out to be the opposite. I guess this is my life. LIFEPROBLEMS! No place for happiness, all for sorrows. I hate it to feel this way, everytime when I wake up, I just wish things would be different but every night the same thing will reappear and there's conflicts begins. Just wish that someday all this will end.. I hope it will be soon.. I don't feel like delaying anymore.. God please guide me... I'm finding the right time... =(

Life as a student + soon to be teacher

Life i always busy with assignments and tests. Everywhere I go, time is never enough. But thinking back, is it because of my own time management or is it because time is really not enough? Well, I guess both play their roles in changing my life. When life is so busy, I've begin not to think about the past but rather moving on towards the future. It is just a great and exciting journey to be in education sector. Everyday is full of mistery and surprises. However, it's not easy either. In fact, the most difficult among all. Everyone may think that educating is an easy job. 'Piece of cake la, just teach ma', you might say. But, the reality is just the reverse. Funny isn't it. You may laugh but we ( the educators) are taking the pain. Thus, don't ever critise or look down on this highly respected profession. I believe that every job, every form of career has its own difficulties. For example, We cannot say that a rubbish collector is easy because without them, are you still be able to have a clean environment? You won't want to do it yourself either, right? Thus, their contribution is actually a sacrifice. This same goes to teaching profession. Without a teacher, we can't produce a good and quality leaders because it all involves teaching and learning in school, college and university. hence, here I'm living my life full of burden and heavy responsibility. Imagine! Thousands of students are in my hands... Hehe.. Don't jump to the conclusion too soon. I might be a great teacher! =) Hopefully in a few years time... So, Gambatte to all educators!